Hi Love,
As you are seeing…
events are real to the body, mind and emotions. As the conditioned illusion of reality continues to disintegrate so does our whole view of what we have thought of as real. What is real? Are we real? And who is there, to know?
We just have to keep letting go of what we have called reality. Keep disconnecting from the thoughts of the mind. The mind is conditioned from the past and is just a handicap to the present.
The more fulfilled you become in yourself the less fun it can become to be around most people most of the time — because they are not actually being people. They are not there. They are asleep, and asleep to the fact that they are asleep. You are just around their conditioned behaviour. And if you have any judgement, anything but unconditional love, and not just watching, you are asleep as well. And it does not matter if you are asleep or waking. Nothing matters. It is just that you feel better when more awake.
As you say, just keep embracing yourself and keep disconnecting from any temptation to modify your truth for the acceptance of other people’s neurotic acceptance, and have the intelligence to be who you are.
Sending you much love… paul