About Paul, his reality
This is an attempt to share what feels like is going on for me right now.
To say everything is feeling unreal is a gross understatement.
Although very real on one level, on the main level everything is –
undefinable.
In one way it is like being on a substance trip, yet in another way
the trip is more real than what we normally call real. Or something.
Everything on the outside seems to shimmer at much the same frequency
as what is vibrating on what we call the inside. I say ‘on what we call
the inside’ because the inner does not seem at all separate from what we call ‘the
outside.’
I suppose one experience that is happening is what we could call empathy.
When I read or watch the news, I am not only there – it is me – being
tortured; my child who has just been raped; my home that is flooded.
I am everybody.
And yet, at the same time, that is not real either. Nothing is, and
everything is.
And in another way, there is only now.
Instead of life being like a continuous movie, it is like a series of
stills – click, click, click, and each click is whole and complete in itself,
and nothing is more, or less, important than anything else – world events,
or fixing the water pump – again.
And that’s another thing – the physical. One thing after another stopping
working. Water pumps, computer, TV, satellite, telephone, chain saw, blower,
and more.
And the body – joint aches, teeth needing fixing, and some days so little
energy that any movement needs a great effort.
I know the psychics and channels have predicted such events, and still ….
Another thing – ’emotional moods.’ At one level, everything stays the same,
and at another level everything is continuously fluctuating.
Something breaks and needs fixing – mood down. Fixed – mood up.
Yet at the same time, nothing changes – gratitude.
This is what I find fascinating about this – even if nothing does change
on the outside, the emotional moods change anyway. Down and up sensations
come and go that do not seem connected to outside circumstances.
Time and size are interesting. What is going on in the world is also
happening in miniature on our land, and on every microscopic level what
we can see through electron microscopes: conflict – everything fighting for survival.
Yet there is an overall feeling of love. Not just of, or for everything,
but the sensation that everything is love – one.
Everything is part of everything, and the everything is love.
That sort of thing