Greetings All,
I have put a Reply at the end of this email. Seems like waking up is happening to many people. Let’s keep remembering… Not to take anything too seriously; Look out beyond ourselves; Watch and accept any againstness — to ourselves and each other; No Us & Them; Come together and be available for each other; Be truthful, and listen — to the messages coming up.
and have fun.
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Dear Paul,
I felt an impulse to share with you, what seems to be going on recently….. I have been experiencing an intense vulnerability these past days, I have a feeling as though my heart is being stripped open, exposed, raw. A very strong energy has been pushing through, at times feeling exquisite and very alive in every cell, it feels like a huge love. And I got another level of seeing that I can’t know or have any control over how this energy wants to express itself and where it will take me - and that’s exciting in a kind of shaky way. The mind comes up with the question of how to exist in the world like this, and the answer that arises is: ‘well this is how it is, so lets see’. And this energy also seems to be shaking up deep layers of old pain and insecurities – this evening I have been sitting with an intense aloneness and many tears and this rawness, and saying yes to it – because that is what is happening, and because there is a huge NO to closing down (like a terror of falling back into an old place of being locked up in myself). And I notice that I am quite shocked by the intensity of these feelings. And I notice the tendency of the mind to attach old ideas about myself to these feelings and can see that these thoughts and ideas are not true. So I guess I feel shaken up and raw, and chaotic, just when everything seemed to be kind of smoothing out and feeling easy and gentle. I guess thats the mystery of how things are – totally unpredictable. And it seems that whatever is going on, I am being held and supported within this incredibly loving presence, that is heart-melting. And sometimes this is more apparent and sometimes the personal asserts itself, and there’s a movement/flow between the two. I don’t know if this all makes any sense? Sometimes i feel the urge to share this stuff and don’t know how to express it or who to express it to. And I feel more grounded just by writing this to you, and it even doesn’t matter if you even read it. and I am aware you get a lot of emails and there’s a feeling of not wanting to write too much.
I appreciate your love and support. I’m smiling now – not taking any of this too seriously.
Love, x
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Hi Love,
Sounds like things are moving along very nicely for you.
You going through all the replies I have been writing is stirring up a lot of things you know. These writings are not just words, they are compressed energy/codes/reminders. The time, energy and consciousness put into them creates deeply moving phenomenon. This is the time for the things you are describing — old things coming up — with a lot of energy. And it seems to go in waves — things you thought you had dealt with coming up again from another depth. All part of the awakening. This is the time for letting clearing happen, and getting adjusted to new levels of vibration.
And you need to be practical. It is true that in these higher vibrations you do tend to be taken care of, and we have to be responsible also. And you do have a tendency to be shaky on the emotional level. Neat we have such a loving and supporting family isn’t it love. Let things happen, and be practical. How? It is looking at the overall picture of what you want from your time here on planet earth. If you feel you are here for your maximum potential then you need to take a look at your life and see what needs to be adjusted. What are your conditions; what you are holding on to; what are you avoiding. And it is not a matter of if you are — you are — so identify them.
Most people who think they are on the path to their maximum potential try to fit their searching around their desires — otherwise known as *A Normal Life. * That’s not the way. Of course incremental changes happen — depending on how much time and energy you put into being truthful and aware, but the major leap into awareness comes through making awareness your priority. And if you are not absolutely honest, with yourself, and others, forget waking up, just have as good a time as you can under the circumstances. When enough people awaken it will jump to all those that are prepared.
Think more in terms of a Social Alchemist. The Social Alchemist is total, and balanced. So, awakening being your priority, just forget yourself and look out to the bigger picture. What message do you get. Are you to be a recluse, or here to be available to your brother and sisters who need assistance at this difficult time. I think this is the time for us all to come together and assist each other.
Keep remembering: take it easy, be as non-serious as possible, and have what is to you, fun.
I send you much love …
paul
PS. I love that you are taking care of the written material. I have had a strong feeling that it needs to be sorted, and got out. Doing something for you as well eh.